Have you ever felt silenced? I was at a meeting and I decided not to share a good idea. I was afraid people would think I was weird so I censored myself. I’ve been thinking about silence a lot the last few weeks. Why do we do it? What stops us from speaking up? What happens if no one speaks?
The first time I felt silenced I was six. I had seen the movie Annie. I really wanted the Annie action figure and I knew all the songs by listening to the tape. I was playing in the front yard when I suddenly got this idea to sing my Annie song to God. I looked up to heaven and said in a loud voice, “This one is for you, God”. Then I belted out The Sun Will Come Out Tomorrow as loud as I could. My neighbor happened to be walking by and heard my little impromptu song. She told me I was weird. I felt weird and I didn’t sing in my front yard anymore.
After my experience with not speaking up in the meeting, I decided it was time not to be silenced any more. I stood in my front yard and looked up to heaven and said, “This one is for you, God”. Then I belted out The Sun Will Come Out Tomorrow. My neighbor was out fixing his car and he gave me a funny look at first, but then he clapped for me. Of course, I had to tell him the whole story. I think the next time I get a good idea in a meeting I will speak up.
I love stories, especially stories where someone accomplishes a goal. I started this blog so I could document my journey to become a better me. I know there are many people out there who have wisdom to share with me. I would like to hear from you. What’s your story? How did you meet your goal? We could all learn from your journey. Write me your story at firstname.lastname@example.org. Your story just might get your very own blog post.
My new challenge will be coming out tomorrow!
The Accountant and I are doing a home renovation project. It smelled like a construction site so I decided to try burning a candle. The candle didn’t work. I tried opening up all the doors in the house. That didn’t work either. I finally came up with a perfect idea. I burned a bag of microwave popcorn. It worked wonderfully. I only have one problem. My whole house now smells like burned popcorn.
I need ideas for a new challenge. Please send me your ideas.
Yesterday, I had a stomach ache. It wasn’t serious enough to stay home from church, but I felt grouchy and sorry for myself as my stomach rumbled. As I was puttering around the house, I got an idea. I should make a sign to tell the world how I felt.
It was a brilliant idea. I started imagining sitting in the church pew with my little sign. Some nice lady might even cook me dinner, because that is what nice church ladies do. My stomach ache eventually went away so I didn’t need to wear my sign. It got me thinking though. Things might be a lot easier if people wore signs and said what was really going on in their life.
What might your sign say?
After walking tonight, I looked down at my exercise shoes. They are kind of beat up. That’s great, because it is means I’ve been using them.
The Accountant and I went hiking today. We saw this warning sign next to a few rocks by a small creek. I started giggling. The poor man in the sign looked so dire especially when compared to our current surroundings of a handful of rocks and a creek that I could hop across. While I was laughing, I stepped on a loose rock and wobbled a bit. I’m fine and quickly recovered my footing. Lesson learned. Pay attention to the warning signs, even the silly ones.
I’ve been so busy with my day job the last two weeks that my blog had to take a back seat. But never fear! I am back now and ready to start my next 13 day challenge. My eighth challenge is to keep a food diary. Now, I’ve kept a food diary in the past so this one is different. Instead of writing down my food and portion size, I’m going to just write down the time of day I eat and any emotions connected to when I ate. My goal is not really to stop myself from eating ice cream ever again or to only eat carrots. Who wants to only eat carrots? My goal is to track how I feel about the food I eat. I might learn something along the way.
The Practical Reason
Many studies show that tracking helps you recognize patterns. In fact, I have read that you don’t have to track forever. You just need to track long enough to get a true picture of your habits. I think 13 days will give me a good picture.
The Philosophy Reason
The whole idea for this challenge came from this cool quote. “Freedom from obsession is not about something you do; it’s about knowing who you are. It’s about recognizing what sustains you and what exhausts you. What you love and what you think you love because you believe you can’t have it. We don’t want to EAT hot fudge sundaes as much as we want our lives to BE hot fudge sundaes. We want to come home to ourselves –Geneen Roth.
I don’t really consider myself obsessed, but I do like the idea of being true to myself and recognizing what I really want out of life.